Musings

The start of a new year always feels like a good time to reflect, doesn’t it? A moment to take stock of what went well, what didn’t, and what’s been quietly simmering beneath the surface. Last year? Well, it was one of those years that felt tougher than it looked in hindsight. Ever have one of those?

You spend months feeling like you’re spinning plates—juggling auditions, side jobs, relationships, health, finances—and yet when you pause, you realise, “Wait a minute, I actually got some stuff done.” It’s not the “Oscars speech” kind of progress, but it’s progress all the same.

There’s this great quote from Bryan Cranston that sticks with me: “The actor’s job is not to book the job. The actor’s job is to go into the room and be compelling.”

Now, replace “actor” with whatever you’re striving for, and it still works. Sometimes, the wins aren’t about the flashy results but about showing up, being present, and doing the thing. For me, last year had a lot of that. I didn’t book a blockbuster, but my audition-to-job ratio was solid. Small victories count—and they add up.

On the personal front, I’ve been reminded how much joy comes from sharing pieces of your life with someone else. Taking Lucy to Chicago, showing her the places that shaped me, was like giving her a guided tour of my past—with some excellent pizza stops along the way, of course. Sharing those stories made them feel fresh again, as if the city had been waiting for someone new to see it.

But let’s not sugarcoat it: life last year was also frustrating. Trying to level up in acting while keeping the bills paid is like running a marathon with a backpack full of rocks. You’re moving forward, but you’re constantly aware of the weight.

And then there’s the mental soundtrack—you know the one. Social media’s endless parade of other people’s highlight reels. Media shouting about how the world’s falling apart. It can pull you down faster than quicksand.

But here’s the thing: stepping back helps. Perspective is a sneaky superpower. When I finally looked at my year objectively, I saw that it wasn’t so bad. Stress just has this annoying habit of zooming in too far on the messy bits.

There’s a Bible verse I always find amusing: “Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” (Matthew 6:34). I mean, it’s solid advice…and also a bit sassy, right? Like, “Calm down, mate, today’s already a handful.” But it’s a fair point. If we’re too focused on what’s next, we miss the quiet wins of today.

Health-wise? Up and down, like one of those theme park rides that makes you question your life choices. But overall, I’m upright and functional, which is more than enough some days. Mental health? Same. It’s a balancing act—holding onto the good stuff while not letting the bad stuff knock you flat.

As we step into another year, maybe the real trick is to keep moving while remembering to pause. Take stock, find the humour in the chaos, and celebrate the small wins—even if it’s just getting through a tough week with your dignity intact. Or at least most of it.

So, to whoever’s reading this: don’t let the world or its noise pull you down. Find the joy in showing up. Take stock of your wins, however small. And remember Bryan Cranston’s advice: the job isn’t always about booking the job. Sometimes, it’s just about being there, being compelling, and keeping faith that the pieces will come together. Here’s to a year of spinning plates—and maybe catching a few.

Have you ever given yourself a gift? I don’t mean a fancy gadget or an expensive meal (though those are delightful). I’m talking about the kind of gift that costs time, attention, and honesty—a true act of generosity towards yourself.

If you’re anything like me, the idea might make you squirm a little. Isn’t it selfish to focus on yourself? Shouldn’t generosity be about others? But here’s the twist: the better we are at giving to ourselves, the more meaningful our generosity becomes.

Let’s unpack this with a bit of humour and a dash of philosophy—because if we can’t laugh at life while pondering its mysteries, what’s the point?

The Paradox of Generosity

Generosity is often painted as a one-way street: a giver and a receiver, with the giver basking in the moral glow of their selflessness. But have you noticed how uncomfortable it feels when someone says, you need to be more generous to yourself? It’s as if we’re being handed a riddle with no answer key. Why does generosity towards ourselves feel harder than giving to others?

Here’s my theory: we’ve internalised the idea that being good means being selfless. But selflessness, taken to extremes, leaves us empty. Generosity isn’t about depleting your own reserves; it’s about sharing from abundance. And abundance starts with you. If you’re running on fumes, you can’t give much to anyone—least of all yourself.

Giving the Gift of Time

One of the greatest gifts you can give yourself is time. Time to walk, to think, to just be. I’ve learned this while recording episodes of the story pilgrim. Wandering through cities, forests, or even my own neighbourhood, I’ve realised that carving out space for myself isn’t indulgence—it’s survival.

Think about the last time you gave yourself permission to do nothing. Not the accidental kind of nothing where you’re scrolling social media and suddenly an hour’s gone—I mean intentional nothing. Sitting quietly. Walking without a destination. Listening to your thoughts without judgement. It’s liberating, isn’t it? And a little terrifying. But this is where we start to reconnect with ourselves, to hear the whispers beneath the noise.

Connection: The Gift That Keeps on Giving

Generosity is a form of connection. When we give to others, we’re saying, I see you. I value you. But what about when we give to ourselves? It’s the same message: I see you. I value you. And yet, connecting with ourselves often feels harder than connecting with others. Why?

Because we’re complicated, messy creatures. It’s easier to focus outward than to face our own inner chaos. But when we take the time to connect with ourselves, to honour our needs and desires, we lay the groundwork for deeper connections with others. How can we truly see someone else if we’re unwilling to see ourselves?

Practical (and Fun) Ways to Be Generous to Yourself

1. Write Yourself a Letter – Imagine you’re your own best friend. What would they say to you? Write it down. You’ll be amazed at the kindness you’re capable of showing yourself.
2. Take a Solo Adventure – Go somewhere you’ve always wanted to visit. Bring a notebook or just your curiosity. No agenda, no expectations—just you and the world.
3. Treat Yourself to Quiet – Turn off your devices. Sit in a park or your favourite chair. Let your mind wander. It’s like giving your brain a deep breath.
4. Celebrate Small Wins – Did you finish a project? Cook a decent meal? Get through a tough day? Celebrate it. Life is made up of small victories, and they deserve recognition.

A Gentle Reminder

Generosity isn’t about grand gestures or constant giving. It’s about presence. It’s about saying, I’m here, and I care, whether to a friend, a stranger, or yourself. When we learn to give ourselves the same kindness we offer others, we unlock something powerful: the ability to give without expectation, to connect without pretence, and to live with a little more ease.

So, next time someone tells you to be generous to yourself, don’t roll your eyes. Think of it as an experiment, a practice, a gift. After all, who deserves your generosity more than you?